15 minutes of fame and flower power!
Everybody enjoys getting recognized for something. Doing something heroic, being helpful, taking kick ass pictures. I’m getting recognized for taking a kick ass picture. While it may not be a huge recognition, I’m still honored.
Check it out: Epic Edits Weblog Last row, the b&w flower picture. I love the picture, and I’m ecstatic that obviously the blog owner liked it enough to include it in his weekly blog post :)
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On to bigger news;
The toddler bed is a hit :) He slept through the night, last night, for the most part. Woke up at 330 and wanted in bed with me, but I got him to lay back down in his bed. I heard him fussing at 430 because he wanted some water. He fell back asleep until 7am. When he slept in the crib, he would wake up at 10ish or 11ish, so last night was a dream compared to what I’m used to.
Tonight he fell asleep in his bed BY HIMSELF. He didn’t want to fall asleep snuggling, didn’t want me to pat his back. He just wanted me in the room with him. That has NEVER happened, so I am ecstatic.
Last for the evening; Spring flowers are in bloom :)
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we just hit another milestone
Skyler is officially in a toddler bed. The crib has been taken down and will hopefully be gone in a couple days.
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He woke up around 10ish. I heard his crying upstairs and when I got to the room, I see him standing at my bed. I thought he wanted to lay in my bed. I get him to lay back down in his, which he does without a fight, but he kept crying. Finally I asked him if he wanted some water. He said yes. He knew his sippy cup was on the shelf above my bed. He drank his water, laid back down in his bed and instantly fell asleep.
My little guy is growing up :(
another sweet photo of him
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easter, revisited
I’ve got to post my entry for yesterday. I blogged on paper. I just have to find the energy to post it :P
For tonight, some easter pictures.
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so much…
Long day. Long week. I’m exhausted of work. I need a new job. :P
Sadly, I have to admit when I process my pictures, I use ready-made actions. Actions that OTHER people spend hours making and tweaking to make fantastic photographs really pop.
I just felt like giving a before and after one my most recent favorite picture. you can figure out which is which ;)
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another round of EBT; on the house.
I fell asleep at 730pm when reading to Skyler. I’ll be back in bed before to long. I’m exhausted.
I went to my hair appointment today. The coloring took longer than it should have, but the color is GORGEOUS. A little more red than I had wanted, but I love love love love it. I have to go back on Thursday to get it cut. I’m excited. :)
bed time loves. night night.
EBT — early bedtime tonight
Whenever Skyler is particularly fussy, I tell him that he’s going to have an EBT. Early Bedtime Tonight. Tonight, that EBT is in refernce to me.
I spent the weekend with a monstorous headache. From the time I woke Saturday morning to falling asleep Sunday night. It’s just recently finally hit me that MAYBE those headaches could be due to lack of sleep. So I’m pushing myself to sleep more. Even if it means falling asleep at 730pm reading books to Skyler and then waking up 2 hours later to shower and spend a few minutes online. I’ll be heading off to bed soon. I need it.
Tomorrow I’m getting my hair cut :) Cut, styled and colored. I’m excited. It’s been so long since I’ve had anything done to my hair besides a trim, so this is big for me. Pictures will be posted eventually.
Friday night possibly to the Five Spot to watch A.S’s band Kink Ador play. I’m not going if they aren’t playing. I’ll have to make sure I bring my camera and my lens{es} so I can get some good shots.
As for the rest of week, nothing planned yet. Just making sure I don’t kill anybody from my extremely short temper fuse while I attempt at catching up on sleep to make myself a much more enjoyable person to be around. If that’s possible ;)
I have plenty of pictures. I’ll post them eventually.
how do you tell someone you are sorry when they won’t listen to you?
I’m sorry :(
It was a mix-up, there was miscommunication and now I’m playing the blame game and putting the guilt on myself. Saturday morning didn’t happen as planned and now the silent treatment is in effect.
I suck. Truth is, I was scared, but had planned on being there. Sometimes plans don’t happen because of one reason or another. Lately that reason has been because of one person, but I can’t put the blame on him. It’s not his fault.
I definitely go through periods of happiness. Those periods of happiness usually end abruptly, only to screw up my feelings and emotions more than normal.
fucking hell….
giving in to the list
So… G. Sarah, Trish & Amanda {check out their blogs <3} have blogged about lists in the month of March. For those doing the NaBloPoMo for March, we all know that is the theme this month. So I’m giving in and posting a list.
Random Things about me.
{1} I have a sad obsession with Sharpie Extra Fine tip pens. I refuse to write with anything else, unless I absolutely have to.
{2} I could compile a list of failed hobbies, but that would just embarrass me.
{3} I have been keeping a blog/journal/diary since I was in the 9th grade. That was 1999, so it’s been 9 years of therapeutic writing. Too bad it’s not exactly helping my psychotic ass.
{4} I fall in love way too easily.
{5} Envy and Lust are 2 of the 7 deadly sins that I have fallen prey to.
{6} I have camera envy everyday that I get on flickr and I see the kick-ass pictures taken with the 40D & the 5D. Yes, I’m STILL drooling over those cameras.
{7} I am addicted to Dr.Pepper
{8} I don’t eat much candy anymore. Unless it’s jellybeans or wintergreen lifesavers.
{9} I’m incredibly shy when I meet people for the first time.
{10} I curse like a sailor.
drinking, laughing, music; it all ends up being fabulous
I’m backdating my post since I had valid reason for not posting in time.
I finally went out with some friends and had a good time. I have finally gotten out of the house and spent some time AWAY from the computer. It’s insane, I know, but I needed it. I needed to go out and feel like a person.
Me, L & A went to go see A.S.’s band play at a bar. Not HIS band, but one he’s hired to play in. The band that is getting ready to get signed was supposed to play too, but something happened, and they didn’t go on. Chip Green, the band, was supposed to go on at 9pm. Instead they went on at 12am. So at 8:30, L & I go to a little pizzera and get some dinner and A meets us there at 9. At 9:15, we head over to the bar, get some good seats, lose the seats getting drinks. So we head to the back of the bar, farther away from the stage. We laugh and chat and just have a good time until Chip Green go on. It’s incredible how fun it is to gossip about people we don’t even know. Especially the group of 12 guys/girls that were dressed head to toe in 80’s clothing. The girls dresses were embarrassing and complimented by crimped and teased hair. The guys wore old school tuxedos complimented by mullets. That gave us a good laugh for about an hour, until they got in their limo and left. Chip Green was fabulous and played great rock music. If they get signed and a CD released, I’ll buy it. I did get some quick shots until 3 groupies get in front of the stage and attempt at dancing to the music. They were badly uncoordinated, drunk and ended up gyrating like strippers out of tune to the music. We didn’t stop making jokes about it. L gets baracaded by a drunk lesbian asking her to go to a tattoo convention and we just over all had a grand time.
I didn’t get many pictures because I didn’t have the lens I wanted with me, and the groupies blocked my view. I was tired, not feeling a buzz anymore and just exhausted overall. But once I got home at 1:30am, I was feeling great and more like my old self. I miss going out and spending time with friends, but I also missed snuggling with Skyler. He didn’t leave my thoughts all night long.
I hope we get together and plan another night like tonight. I’m a mother, but I’m still a real person. I still need “me” time. Tonight was just was the doctor ordered too.
stressed + tired = crappiness
Work is completely stressing me out and that combined with not sleeping doesn’t equal up to feeling very good.
Bed early tonight (or earlier than normal), going to see my friend’s band play tomorrow night and hopefully get some kickass pictures, and then getting ready for easter Saturday. :) fun fun fun.
I’m going to try to get some cute Easter pictures this weekend!
mon cheri
He calls me Mon Cheri, and I think he saved me from walking out of work today.
They (the executives) asked me to help out the price change team with the simple job of putting clearance sticker on 3 flats of items in the backroom. They said if me and another did the job, it wouldn’t take us more than 3 hours. They also knew that today was the day for me to do the schedule. The schedule itself takes about 10ish hours to complete. I’m only at work for 8 hours a day, so it usually ends up taking a day and a half. The deadline is noon on Thursdays. Thursdays, I’m usually equally swamped with work. They know this. Yet, they still asked for my help.
I worked on the schedule from 8am to 1130am when I went to lunch. 12pm to 230pm was spent ticketing countless boxes of tissues and other miscellaneous items. 230, I’m all set to get back to work when I get handed several more tasks. Again, they KNOW Wednesdays are schedule day. They KNOW how long it takes me to complete schedules for nearly 200 employees, especially when we are crazy short handed and we have to do a lot of switching around.
One task involved, I was told to ask a particular team member for help with, or simply put, was asked to see if she could do it. She told me that she couldn’t, she just had too much today. I nearly lost it. I spouted off how I wasn’t even close to be completed with my major task for the day, was it really too much to ask for some simple help when I had been helping others half the day. She muttered something and I replied with a “Whatever. I’ll do it myself. Next time I’ll remember to not bother to ask for help.”
I felt this equal stress all day. I had hid out in my ETL’s office to avoid people so I could work in peace. They still managed to find me and lay out problems on me that should have been up to the ETL’s to decide on. Work related problems. I have no say in the matter, I wasn’t in the mood to hear it. Lucky for me, he was there. We texted on and off the entire day and he kept me from going insane. He replaced my frown with a smile and kept my spirits up, even if for just a short period of time. He knows just what to say to turn on me, to make me happy, to make me laugh. He reads my mind and really seems to understand what I’m saying and thinking.
The fact that he does this scares me. I hate the possible relationship stage. I feel so vulnerable, so open to getting hurt. Normally, I want to shut myself off from guys, keep them away from thinking I like them, knowing its always a one-sided feeling. This time, I can’t help but open myself up and I’m just hoping that I’m not going to get a broken heart in the end.
what is going on…
he’s making me blush, making my heart race, making me feel something that I haven’t felt in so long. There has been a constant smile on my face for the past two hours. I’m filled with this incredible feeling, and I’m scared that it won’t last. I’m scared that my happiness will be short lived.
I can’t place this feeling, I just know that I want more. I’ll enjoy it while it lasts keeping my fingers crossed that this feeling never leaves.
I wish I could explain it, but it’s caught me by surprise and I don’t know what the hell is going on anymore.
thoughts and updates
Sometimes I think my mind gets the best of me. I tend to have an overactive imagination and I think I start to think much of what I imagine could actually happen and I get my hopes up.
Easter soon. I can’t wait. I can’t wait to let Skyler color eggs. I can’t wait for him to participate in an easter egg hunt Sunday morning. I love these little holidays. Not much hype is built up, but they are still fun to celebrate.
Not much of a post. Sorry. Just not in a blogging mood I guess.
i miss…
I miss the newborn days. I miss the infant days. I miss the toddler days. I miss the days that I spend in utter bliss because we are BOTH having a good day.
I miss being able to go outside because of nice weather. We don’t have good days when we are stuck inside the house due to rain. I can’t wait for summer, and days spent at the pool.
This is one of my favorite memories…
this is me… really happy
I am happy right now, and I can’t even find the words to blog about it. Today was a long day, but in all honesty, I can’t even remember any stressful times that I felt today, and it’s been a long time since I’ve had days like this. Long time since I have actually had days that I enjoyed and didn’t want to end.
Skyler had a fever, so my planned day off of work turned into him staying home too. For the most part he was in good spirits, but that wore off quickly when he refused to nap. We played, I got my much deserved computer time, including time to get a few pictures processed for my friends Save the Date invites. I end the day chatting a couple hours with someone who kept a smile on my face and it’s been so long since I’ve really laughed.
I’m going to bed happy right now, and I’m hoping for good dreams. Maybe things are improving. Maybe this is a sign that life is starting to look up. Maybe something, someone?, is in my life that is changing it for the better. My pessimistic attitude is telling me to stop getting my hopes up, but a little voice is telling me not to listen.
poisonous friendship
Tonight has me thinking. I’ve got a friend that I’m starting to feel like the friendship is pure poison. Everything is about her. What I say goes ignored and if she does listen, her responses sound completely uninterested.
I try to be a good friend. I’m interested in what my friends have to say, even if I couldn’t care less. If it’s important to them, it’s important to me, right? So how come I feel like I don’t get the same attitude back.
I hate feeling like friendships are a one way street. Give give give, and never get back. That’s what high school friendships were like and I’m done with them. Here’s to turning over a new life and leaving behind poisonous friendships. I have some fabulous friends that I love more than anything. They are the ones that really mean everything to me, and they are the ones that will be there till the end.
Thank You Kimberly!
I have to give a very public shout-out to Kimberly for the fabulous header she made me.
She emailed it to me the other day and I haven’t gotten a chance to email her back yet. Hopefully this will make it up. Love both of the banners. You are awesome and thank you again!
<3
photography, it’s an insane high
I did a mini-session for one of my bosses at work. She needed headshots for her Save the Date invites and she asked me to do them. After work we went to her house to a lake/swamp area behind their house. The weather was gorgeous and the area outside was stunning. Not to mention that her house was incredible.
They were so natural for pictures. She said she felt a little weird since she never has pictures done, but I could tell that she was enjoying it. The interaction between them two was wonderful. I could see the love surrounding them. They were so fun to photograph, it makes me wish I could do her wedding. Too bad it’s going to be in South Carolina.
Have a wonderful wedding K. You and your fiance are so cute together. You two were made for each other.
Amazon Marketplace can bite me.
I’m so mad right now. I’ve ordered several photography books from Amazon marketplace. I’ve always gotten fantastic prices on books in great condition. I always got an email the next day of ordering it saying that it’s been shipped. Their delivery rates have always been comparable to Amazon.com directly.
Until now.
I ordered a book Saturday, March 8th in the afternoon from an Amazon Marketplace seller. This particular seller ships from Tennessee. Since I live in Tennessee, I assumed I would get it in normal delivery time. It is now Tuesday, March 11th and I have yet to receive an email to let me know that it’s been shipped. I’m fuming. I’m seething at the mouth.
sometimes you just don’t feel "right"
Wednesday I’m doing headshots of my boss and her fiance. She needs some pictures for her save the date invites and she asked me to do it. I’m honored and excited about it.
Friday I’m doing a friends prom pictures, or I’m supposed to. She wants to do them at a park 30 minutes away at 4pm. um… Traffic is horrible at that time and I have to pick Skyler up from daycare by 5:45 or I start paying by the minute. So depending on what time she’s done getting ready will depend on if we do the pictures or not.
I’m in a funk. I just paid $400 to get a fuel line in my truck fixed. Two weeks ago I paid $320 for towing, two tires and an oil change. I can’t do this anymore. I’m tired of money stresses. I’m tired of hating my job and hating even more the process of looking for a new job. I’m tired of constantly putting in my resume and application only to get turned down. I need someone or something to brighten up my day. I think I need to take a week off and just get away with Skyler. Me and him alone, relaxing.
That’s what I need. A vacation, of some sort.
this is…
This is what puts a smile on my face. We woke up to 3 inches of beautiful snow Saturday Morning. Skyler got to experience his first snow day and I can honestly say that he truly enjoyed it. He danced and smiled and laughed and seemed so happy in the chilly snowy air. Once my fingers were numb to the touch and I couldn’t take anymore pictures I had to bribe him to go inside. If I hadn’t of made him, I’m wondering how long he would have been out there for.
I know it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged about what I’m going to say. Something came to me last night. A rush of memories, of friendships, a rush of feelings. I thought about him, about the friendship we had and how much I envy those that have that kind of friendship now. I miss having someone I could always turn too and just talk to about anything. I miss having someone who understood everything I felt and thought. Someone who I knew was there.
Its frustrating. I’m surrounded by people, but I’m so lonely.
I’m ending this blog post tonight and heading off to bed with a heavy heart. It’s just like any other night for me though.
memories
Do you know what I miss?
Summer. I miss the warm weather. I miss the hours spent in the pool. I miss the shorts and the tank tops. I miss letting Skyler wear just a tshirt and a diaper, if even a shirt at all. I miss being able to play outside. I miss the hot sun and the fabulous weather.
I miss shoots like this:
I love making things complicated…
I love making things complicated. I’m back at blogger. I couldn’t get wordpress to let me change the CSS of the template without paying so much a month, so I figured out a way to make it work on blogger and I started over.
Welcome to my new blog. I promise this is the last time. <3
I should have a header up soon, for now deal with what I have :P
I also want to thank suckmylolly.com for the fabulous template. :) I love it!