Psychotically Sane

I hate to admit but I’m starting to slack on my photography. I’m slacking on taking pictures, I’m slacking on editing pictures, I’m slacking on uploading them.

However, I have been spending more time with Skyler outside and just playing in general. I’ve been putting away the camera and just playing with him instead of watching him. And I’m having fun.

It’s incredible the amount of imagination this child has. How he’ll stack blocks like stairs and pretend to make his Little People fall off the stairs. How he’ll be watching Shrek and actually interacting. He tells Shrek to play catch and asks him “You ready?” He then throws the ball (away from the TV, might I add) and then runs after it laughing up a storm. How he loves to “talk” on his phone and carry his keys around. How he grabs his play laptop and heads for the door waving and calling out “bye bye. my keys mommy. going ride” and then gets mad when he realizes that his keys don’t unlock the front door nor will they start the vehicle.

Most of all, I love how he plays with his stuffed Sesame Street toys. How he makes them help him clean up and he dances with them. How he tucks them in night night only to get aggressive when they don’t actually go to sleep. (I promise, I don’t know WHERE it comes from). I love how he is just one big ball of energy, always ready to rough house and fight. Then when he gets a boo-boo, he comes running to me for a kiss and a spiderman bandaid. Yes, my child has to have a spiderman bandaid on his body at all times. Preferably the knee.

My life isn’t close to perfect right now. There is too much going on and I can’t explain how I feel about most of it. But I know that I do enjoy my time with Skyler. Things could be better if I had made different choices, but then I wouldn’t know this kind of love. I wouldn’t get to experience the joy of having a child. This is love. This is the love I have right now and I’m trying to enjoy it more than what I have.

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