Psychotically Sane

Archive for December, 2008

It’s no secret that I have always been a loner. Never one to have tons of friends, just the close couple of friends. Or I spent time by myself. Lately, I’ve been trying to keep it a secret how much this has been bothering me.

I keep thinking how much I wish I had someone that would offeremotional support when I am at my lowest. When I’m in tears because he has had a huge hour long temper tantrum just because of the simple fact that he is tired. I want someone to be there and tell me that it’s going to be ok. Someone to just be there and offer their comfort when things are at their lowest. I don’t have that. Instead I try to comfort myself. And it’s really fucking hard to tell myself to look up, things will get better, when I have lost all faith in that.

Christmas has come and gone and I’m happy to report that I have survived the holidays. I can’t wait to be able to just relax now.

I got some wonderful yarn, knitting book, new yarn rolling case and some fabulous needles. Perfectly complements my new fun hobby :)

Skyler got tons of presents. Backyardigan beanies (Thanks to the cutest curly hair Miss Santa I have ever met. And her wonderful Mommy ;), wonderpets action figures, Diego play toys, child digital camera, cassette player with a Backyardigans music CD and cassette, several books, clothes, 2 Mr. Potatohead toys. (One original, One spiderman and extra pirate accessories) and a fun Vtech Vsmile game system with not only the Diego Cartridge, but the Backyardigans cartridge too.

I think we had a great Christmas.

We all know how hard it is to lose weight. We all know how hard it is to maintain your weight around the holidays. I have successfully managed to not only lose 15lbs this holiday season but keep it off and continue to knock the weight off.

I started at 175.5. Being that I’m 5”5, this is not a bad weight but it definitely has made feel extremely self-concious about myself. So for the past 5 weeks I’ve been making a strong effort to watch what I eat and drink. I’m still downing the sodas but I throw in a water during the day to make me feel better. I have cut the junk food intake down and when I do eat it, strictly in moderation. I have also been eating smaller portion size. And more importantly, more fruits and veggies. And these change in habits have brought my weight to a healthier 159.5. My pants and shirts are looser and I feel like I’m gaining a lot of confidence. It is a great feeling. Now let’s just see if I can lose 30-ish more lbs. Then I will be really happy.

It’s almost Christmas time. And because Skyler loves the Backyardigans, I made him a CD and a cassette so he can listen to the music. Maybe then we can keep the TV turned off more