Psychotically Sane

It’s no secret that I have always been a loner. Never one to have tons of friends, just the close couple of friends. Or I spent time by myself. Lately, I’ve been trying to keep it a secret how much this has been bothering me.

I keep thinking how much I wish I had someone that would offeremotional support when I am at my lowest. When I’m in tears because he has had a huge hour long temper tantrum just because of the simple fact that he is tired. I want someone to be there and tell me that it’s going to be ok. Someone to just be there and offer their comfort when things are at their lowest. I don’t have that. Instead I try to comfort myself. And it’s really fucking hard to tell myself to look up, things will get better, when I have lost all faith in that.

Merry (belated) Christmas!

Dec 26, 2008 The Mom, birthday/holiday celebrations, photography, the boy

Christmas has come and gone and I’m happy to report that I have survived the holidays. I can’t wait to be able to just relax now.

I got some wonderful yarn, knitting book, new yarn rolling case and some fabulous needles. Perfectly complements my new fun hobby :)

Skyler got tons of presents. Backyardigan beanies (Thanks to the cutest curly hair Miss Santa I have ever met. And her wonderful Mommy ;), wonderpets action figures, Diego play toys, child digital camera, cassette player with a Backyardigans music CD and cassette, several books, clothes, 2 Mr. Potatohead toys. (One original, One spiderman and extra pirate accessories) and a fun Vtech Vsmile game system with not only the Diego Cartridge, but the Backyardigans cartridge too.

I think we had a great Christmas.

Protected:

Dec 24, 2008 Uncategorized

Protected: definitely something to think about.

Dec 23, 2008 CB, The Mom, love sucks, rambling

rockin’ the weight loss

Dec 23, 2008 The Mom, rambling

We all know how hard it is to lose weight. We all know how hard it is to maintain your weight around the holidays. I have successfully managed to not only lose 15lbs this holiday season but keep it off and continue to knock the weight off.

I started at 175.5. Being that I’m 5”5, this is not a bad weight but it definitely has made feel extremely self-concious about myself. So for the past 5 weeks I’ve been making a strong effort to watch what I eat and drink. I’m still downing the sodas but I throw in a water during the day to make me feel better. I have cut the junk food intake down and when I do eat it, strictly in moderation. I have also been eating smaller portion size. And more importantly, more fruits and veggies. And these change in habits have brought my weight to a healthier 159.5. My pants and shirts are looser and I feel like I’m gaining a lot of confidence. It is a great feeling. Now let’s just see if I can lose 30-ish more lbs. Then I will be really happy.