Archive for February, 2009
February 25th, 2009 | 
Author: I’m ashamed to admit that since getting my Canon 30D, I haven’t had much time to play with it. I’ve taken a couple pictures here and there, but nothing really blog worthy. I’ve taken more time reading the manual and playing with the settings and then going back through my million photography and camera books to remind myself what certain settings mean. Would it be better for my camera to be set to AI FOCUS or AI SERVO? What metering should it be set too? My nose has been buried in books and it hasn’t just been my camera and photography books. I’ve been re-reading the Harry Potter series. (Don’t laugh. I’m on book 7 since starting the series 3 weeks ago.) I recently bought a new knitting hat book that I love and is getting me more motivated to knit. I’m using the ideas in the book and reading through the patterns for little tips but I’m making the hats just a little different. More my own idea. There are a couple of hats in the book that I’m going to make as is, but for the most part I want them just a little different than the author made them. Knitting has become an addiction for me. I love how calming and de-stressing it is.
And then because I despise and feel guilty if I leave the post photo-less – (I’ve felt horrible the past few months for my lack of photography and lack of blog posting) – I actually managed to take a Happy Bokeh Wednesday picture. It ended up being a collaborative diptych effort with Kimberly. It turned out good ;)
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I used to need to blog everyday to let out emotions and thoughts that haunted me, but now the screen stays empty when I pull up the page.
Things are going steady now. Work is work. Home is home. Nothing is different, nothing new to report on.
Skyler, however, that is a different story. He has turned into a livewire chatterbox toddler with more personality than little body body can contain. He’s rocking the potty training too. He has been wearing his Shrek and Spiderman underwear since this past Saturday. He has had less accidents than I can count on one hand. Best of all? He LOVES wearing his underwear. He will proudly show off Spiderman or Shrek on his butt (with my direction ;) and threw a fit Monday morning when I put him in a pull-up for daycare. To be perfectly honest, I was scared of how he would do at daycare in his underwear. So Monday he wore a pull-up until I could talk to his teacher about him wearing underwear. Today, he walked into daycare wearing a pair of Shrek underwear and left wearing the same pair of Shrek underwear. No. Accidents. I was ecstatic when they told me the good news. And he had a huge smile on his face when he told me “No pee-pee on Shrek!”. I know we are going to have our handful of accidents before he is 100% potty trained, but it doesn’t matter. It happens, all that matters is how hard he is trying to get to the potty before he does have an accident.
I love that kid.
I know this post is going to expose my lameness. But I don’t care. My Canon 30D came by UPS truck today. My stalking paid off. And I couldn’t be happier.
The camera feels incredible compared to my Digital Rebel. It feels sturdier, heavier, more quality build. It even sounds nicer.
And then of course the test pictures. First one taken at 1000 ISO. Second taken at 1600 ISO. My Rebel started getting grainy at 400 ISO. 800 was usable. 1600 was horrible. 3200 was disastrous. On the 30D, 400 looks fabulous. 800 is nice. 1600 is very usable. 3200, I haven’t gone there yet. But we will see ;)
Final opinion? I’m in love. I’m happy with my decision. While a full frame 5D would be wonderful, I’m incredibly happy with my 30D. It’s perfect and I couldn’t be happier with it.
I’ve been shying away from blogging. I admit that I open up a window for a new post each night. Never to have anything to say. It’s been that way for my photography. I’ve been itching to get behind the lens only to know that I’ll end up disappointed in my photos.
I need to break free of this funk. Tuesday, UPS will be delivering a new (refurbished) Canon 30D. I’m beyond excited. I’ve been waiting (not so patiently) for an upgrade for almost a year. Maybe this will help me get back into the groove. If not, then knowing that only a couple more months of winter is left is sure to end the funk. I can’t wait for the spring and summer. I can’t wait for sunshine and warm weather.
I have learned something new about myself. Major change scares me. I worry how I will adjust. I worry if I can handle it, and I tend to shy away from it. But then every now and then I need it. I crave change.
Work is the big thing. I’ve been working in the HR/Clerical part of my job for almost 2 years. Holy Moly. April will be the big 2 years. I enjoy it. I like the hours, the people, the work isn’t bad. Lately it’s been driving me up the wall. I can complete my workload in half the time it used to take me. So I’ve been helping out on the floor. I’ve been helping the pregnant signing specialist put up the signs around the store. I’ve been driving the powered equipment that carries me up to the ceiling to hang the signs and help her with the work that she can no longer do because of doctor ordered restrictions. I’ve had so much free time, I have even been helping set the new transitions and push product out to the floor. I’m being challenged to learn new jobs and new roles. I want the change in my work position. I don’t necessarily want to change the job company I work for, I just want to change positions. I want to get off the chair and out on the floor. It’s the small change I need.
Now I have to stop myself… I complain about the work place almost daily. I complain about the upper management. I complain about some of those that I work with. And yet I would still hate to leave where I work. I’m scared of the change of starting a new job with a new company. That’s too big of a change. I need to take it slow.
Another minor change that has seemed to bring a breath of fresh air to my night? My change from Firefox to Safari. The browser is neater, more orderly. The font is cleaner and I love the look of it. I know it’s a lame change, but I tend to get bored easily of what I use everyday. So this is a welcoming change ;)
Have you ever gone through a day recalling random memories of a person? Have you ever done a normal task, only to think of a person from your past? That’s been happening, a lot lately. I hate remembering lost friends, acquaintances, knowing that there isn’t a chance of talking to them ever again. It bums me out.
I’m not even going to try to come up with an excuse for not blogging. Things are just frustrating right now. I can’t explain it. I’m keeping it locked up inside my mind, knowing that sooner or later it’s going to burst. I can’t help it. I just don’t know how to put it to words. I know that even now I’m not making much sense.
I’m still doing my knitting. I’ve cast on my first project for the month. A diaper wrap knitted with wool/nylon blend yarn. It’s turning out gorgeous. Knitting has become my sanity saver. I will hopefully have it completed within the next couple days so I can start on a pair of fingerless mittens and finish up Sky’s longies. I don’t know what’s going to be after those. I just know that I am enjoying the knitting…
