the smiles.
Not much to say tonight. I got lots of smiles today. And we all know that his smile makes my heart do jumping jacks and my stomach fill with butterflies.
I think I’m actually looking forward to working on Wednesday.
busy busy weekend
The weekends are never long enough. I didn’t even manage to get enough done. Just cleaned off my computer and moved about 10gb (if not more) of files to my external hard drive. Ran a disk clean up. Finally uploaded tons of photos just sitting on my hard drive to flickr. Lots of laundry. Picked blueberries. Cared for a sick toddler while being sick myself. The last one was easy though. I enjoyed just laying around and snuggling while we watched movies and napped.
Big News. Starting August 19th, (skipping August 26th) I will be taking photography sessions on Tuesdays. I don’t know how long this will last for, but it’s something I want and need to do. I’m excited. I will be doing babies 4mnths - 15mnths. In family home or on location. Now I just need to talk to work about doing 4 day work weeks or only working half days on Tuesdays.
Also, I’m going to start making tutu’s. To use with photography sessions and to sell. Email me if you are interested and I can give you more information. :)
I’m excited. I’m tired of watching my life pass me by. I need to do something for me.
Lastly, just a few pictures to put a smile on my readers faces :)
toddlerhood
I hate to admit but I’m starting to slack on my photography. I’m slacking on taking pictures, I’m slacking on editing pictures, I’m slacking on uploading them.
However, I have been spending more time with Skyler outside and just playing in general. I’ve been putting away the camera and just playing with him instead of watching him. And I’m having fun.
It’s incredible the amount of imagination this child has. How he’ll stack blocks like stairs and pretend to make his Little People fall off the stairs. How he’ll be watching Shrek and actually interacting. He tells Shrek to play catch and asks him “You ready?” He then throws the ball (away from the TV, might I add) and then runs after it laughing up a storm. How he loves to “talk” on his phone and carry his keys around. How he grabs his play laptop and heads for the door waving and calling out “bye bye. my keys mommy. going ride” and then gets mad when he realizes that his keys don’t unlock the front door nor will they start the vehicle.
Most of all, I love how he plays with his stuffed Sesame Street toys. How he makes them help him clean up and he dances with them. How he tucks them in night night only to get aggressive when they don’t actually go to sleep. (I promise, I don’t know WHERE it comes from). I love how he is just one big ball of energy, always ready to rough house and fight. Then when he gets a boo-boo, he comes running to me for a kiss and a spiderman bandaid. Yes, my child has to have a spiderman bandaid on his body at all times. Preferably the knee.
My life isn’t close to perfect right now. There is too much going on and I can’t explain how I feel about most of it. But I know that I do enjoy my time with Skyler. Things could be better if I had made different choices, but then I wouldn’t know this kind of love. I wouldn’t get to experience the joy of having a child. This is love. This is the love I have right now and I’m trying to enjoy it more than what I have.
underwater swimming.
just a little fun with a disposable camera and swimming underwater.
Quick update since I’m going to bed soon.
Busy weekend. Spent it finishing up a couple projects. They all turned out well so I’m happy. Skyler swam a lot this weekend. he’s turning into a little fish. He also go to enjoy a fudgesicle :) Of course I got tons of pictures.
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the happy bokeh wednesday post
Happy Bokeh Wednesday blogger world!
I’m feeling a bit crap-tastic and a bit on the iffy side. Long day of work today and I have a feeling tomorrow will be even longer. At least there will be one thing {person} that will make my day better.
Of course pictures today. Skyler took some pictures too but I accidentally deleted them :( I love how he’s taking an interest in my camera and in taking pictures. I’m not going to push him into it, but I sincerely hope that it’s something he learns to love as much as I have and it’s something that stays with him all his life. I don’t care if he gets into cooking, sports, arts, dance, acting… I’ll be proud of him no matter what. But I’ll be most proud if he follows me into photography.
I want to be his inspiration….
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so this is what it feels like
I’ve been such a bad blogger lately. I want to blog about what I’m feeling and what is going on, but how can I when I don’t understand what I am feeling.
Still having the feelings for my boss at work. Still can’t make sense of what is going on.
Skyler is calming down with his temper tantrums. He’s talking more and more everyday and I think that he’s starting to get less frustrated since he can communicate better. His personality is also starting to come out more and more. He cracks me up most of the day.
and have I mentioned how much he LOVES swimming?
my mini-me
Skyler is turning into my mini-me. Everything I do, eat, drink he wants to copy. Including taking pictures. I tried to show him how to properly hold the camera but he kept shaking his finger at me and going “No no no no Mommy! Skyler picture”. He would then proceed to put the camera up to his face backwards and try to push the button. Then he turned it back over to look at the back of the camera. He actually got mad when he realized that my film camera wouldn’t show him the picture he took. (I turned it off so we didn’t waste film ;)
Life is crazy. I’m so confused by everything going on but I try not to stress about it too much. Instead I look forward to the time I have to myself to relax (the little amount of time) and I look forward to the time I spend with Skyler.
Sometimes all he has to do is just give me a smile, or give me a kiss, and all my sorrows, anger and worries go away. For at least a short amount of time…
weekend recap
I know it’s been a little while since I’ve done a proper post. I’ve been trying to catch up on my sleep the past couple days. Not doing so well unfortunately.
Saturday morning, Skyler and I went to a blueberry farm. Grandma ended up picking most of the blueberries as Skyler had almost no interest in it. He was having more fun trying to sneak them into his mouth and playing in the leaves and dirt.
We ended up getting 8lbs of blueberries. The rest of the day involved cleaning and eating more.
Sunday morning, we woke up at the ass crack of dawn to a temper tantrum. Once he calmed down and got his sippy of water, he wouldn’t go back to sleep. So he watched Shrek and I slept. At 7 am he had his breakfast with another side of temper tantrum. Watched a lit bit of Sesame street and started what ended up being a very long day. Lunch was very uneventful. He ate then watched Shrek while I finished up my lunch. Actually, he fell asleep within the first 5 minutes of Shrek. He woke up when I tried to move him upstairs and threw a fit because he wanted Shrek. He never did fall back asleep during the movie…. After a 41 minute temper tantrum, he finally went to bed at 2:41pm, a time which he is normally waking up from his nap. While I was eating dinner (he had filled up on snacks before dinner. Thanks grandma), he managed to fall off the side of the couch (he was trying to monkey climb) and got a nice rug-burn scrape on his left temple. The fall gave him his appetite back while I lost mine. Finish off with an hour of him running off his energy, and we both fall asleep in our beds. Of course I wake up an hour later to take a shower, blog and head back to sweet slumber.
I’d say all in a all, a very exhausting weekend.
this is what summer is made of
–I love the glorious sun that shines on us for 14 hours a day. That is 14 hours that I have to take pictures.
–I love swimming every day and Skyler jumping into the pool and swimming to me.
–I love knowing that my mini-me loves swimming as much as I do. Probably more.
–I love flowers and flower-weeds in full bloom
–I love spending time outside with Skyler. He’s happiest, I’m happiest, life is wonderful.
I also love Bokeh Wednesday.
it only happens once
nothing much new to update about.
Skyler is still throwing his terrible two temper tantrums. About 60% of the time. The other 40% he is the sweetest, funniest, cutest boy I have ever seen.
My friend S had her baby. A whopping 7lbs of cute boyness. He’s so tiny. It makes me realize that I’ve forgotten how small (if he was small!) Skyler was when he was a baby. I miss the tiny fingers. I miss the tiny toes. I miss the sweet baby curl and the sweet baby snuggles. 5 weeks until I get to do baby pictures. It’s their cultural belief that babies shouldn’t be photographed until 6 weeks of age. So I’m patiently waiting for my chance to pounce with my camera. ;)
I wish I had more to update on. At least on one aspect of my life…
oh. and just one picture for tonight.
this made me smile
This made me smile.
Today was a fabulous days for pictures. I love days like that.
flower bokeh - so not creative.
My mind is racing tonight. I can’t make sense of anything right now. So my blog post will only consist of a Happy Bokeh Wednesday photo. I’ll understand what’s going on soon enough. I just need time to figure out what’s going on in my head.
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oh Skyler….
Nothing much tonight. I told myself I was going to go to bed early, but of course it’s not going to happen. It’s already close to 11:30 which means I’ll only be getting about 6 hours of sleep, most likely less since it’s normal for me to wake up several times during the night.
Skyler has been fighting a nasty case of the terrible two’s. He gets so frustrated because communication is still very unclear. He can tell me what he wants, but he gets mad when I don’t give in. He threw a fit this afternoon because he wanted juice. I would have given him some but we are all out until I can run to the store tomorrow. Of course he threw a fit and refused his milk until I explained to him that the juice was all gone and mommy would have to buy some more. Once he calmed down so I could talk to him, he drank his milk. When he was done, he gave me his milky smiled and patted me on the back saying “lo you mommy” and giving me a milky kiss.
Of course, it’s hard to stay mad at him.
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no all done. bayer. swim.
I absolutely love the summer time. I love swimming underwater - love jumping in - love splashing - just having fun and feeling like there are no worries in the world. I don’t want winter to come.
The crappiness feeling is still haunting me. I just can’t explain it. I just want it to go away.
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blah…
new favorite picture. It’s nowhere near perfect. Composition is off, it’s filled with noise, motion blur, slightly out of focus. I think the imperfections is part of the reason I love it.
Nothing is perfect in my life right now. I feel like I’m missing out on so much. I feel like Skyler is missing out on so much. There are so many things that I would change, so many imperfections that I would fix.
I get in a funk every month. This month is no different. Now I just have to figure my way out of this funk.
crunchy bum
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I bought a reusable swim diaper. I feel like such a crunchy mom. lol
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happy bokeh wednesday loves.
chubby fingers
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just a quick update.
I can’t go swimming for a week or so. Swimmer’s Ear in my right ear. It’s throbbing pain and bothering me so much.
Skyler is still obsessed with Shrek. I don’t know how to break him of it.
Work sucks. I’m on the lookout for a much better job. I’ve been submitting tons of resumes.
nothing new. just boring boring boring….
jumping fish
Skyler has realized how much fun it is jumping into the pool. He must have done it about 500 times today. Then did it about 100 more times tonight. I managed to have my camera with me tonight to get a couple shots as he jumped out to grandpa. The first shot is my favorite :)
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swim swim!
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Today was an overall ok day.
Skyler was devastated when we couldn’t go swimming Friday afternoon because it was raining. He was devastated this morning because we couldn’t go outside because it was raining. Somehow, by this afternoon, the weather had cleared up and the sun was out. The water was a fabulous 85 degrees and Skyler was so happy when I told him we could go swimming. :)
He didn’t want to get out of the water, but I think it was the bribery of watching Shrek that changed his mind.
7:30pm came and he didn’t want to go to bed. So he played quietly while I got online. 7:55 he tugged on my hand and told me that it was time for night-night. To my surprise he had picked up all the toys he pulled out of his toy box. He went to sleep after 3 books and no fighting.
I love days that end that wonderfully.
savoring the moment
I’ve got a new love when it comes to photography. Taking pictures photojournalism style. I love capturing a moment in time. Capturing pictures that will bring back a rush of wonderful memories.
Sunday, Skyler and I made banana bread. Of course I had to capture it in pictures. (Warning. This is picture heavy ;)
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some pictures I took on Saturday :)
As I blogged about before, Saturday was his last swimming lesson. To celebrate how fabulous he did, we got Burger King for breakfast afterwards. Burger King had amazing light, so naturally I got pictures ;)
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treating him to a burger king breakfast, originally uploaded by Me (?).
He loved his breakfast of french toast sticks, hashbrowns and orange juice. I love how the pictures turned out.
how did this happen?
What has happened to my baby?
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First picture was taken 8.25.06
Second picture was taken 7.15.07
Third picture was taken 5.18.08
not a year difference between the pictures. Where has my baby gone.