what I need…
It’s no secret that I have always been a loner. Never one to have tons of friends, just the close couple of friends. Or I spent time by myself. Lately, I’ve been trying to keep it a secret how much this has been bothering me.
I keep thinking how much I wish I had someone that would offeremotional support when I am at my lowest. When I’m in tears because he has had a huge hour long temper tantrum just because of the simple fact that he is tired. I want someone to be there and tell me that it’s going to be ok. Someone to just be there and offer their comfort when things are at their lowest. I don’t have that. Instead I try to comfort myself. And it’s really fucking hard to tell myself to look up, things will get better, when I have lost all faith in that.
I’m praying for you Dante
I’ve blogged about Dante before. The just turned 2 (in September) year old who has been fighting Neuroblastoma for almost a year. 12 days shy of a year to be exact and the NB is putting up too much of a fight. Dante is dying and there is nothing else they can do for him. Just hope and pray that he can enjoy the rest of the holiday season and the family can spend as much time with him as possible before his passing.
Please pray for the Amazing Dante and his incredible family. I know they are hurting beyond belief and they need all the love and care they can receive.
Joey, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. You have an amazing little boy who did amazingly well considering what he’s been fighting.
<3
first snowfall of the year.
We got the first snowfall of the year tonight. It started with a mix of snow and rain on the way home from work and continued into a beautiful snowfall by 6pm. Skyler HAD to go outside in the snow even though it was pitch dark outside. He loved every minute of it. I can’t wait to get snow during the day so he can play in it.
it’s the way it always goes
I hate the way I keep the blog post window open for several hours before I finally find the words I’m looking for. It’s only the end of Wednesday but this whole week has been insane.
Monday, Skyler woke up sick so we had to pull a sick day and spend it at home. I enjoy days where I can snuggle with him on the couch and just relax.
Tuesday was spent at work attempting at catching up on the work missed Monday. Can I admit that I failed miserably? Instead spent my time on other tasks that shouldn’t have grabbed my attention. I wanted to clean and organize a room (that so badly needed it) instead of sitting at the computer keying in set schedules while yawning my brain out.
Wednesday went wonderfully at first until poor planning on upper managements part had me stressed out because this ALWAYS happens. I always leave work on Wednesday with my heart hurting. Something has got to give.
The rest of the week will hopefully go by with not too many stresses or hair pullings. I started on a new knitting project the past couple days and I’m still at least a week away from finishing it. It’ll be well worth it when I’m done. I still have pictures to post, but in true slacker form, I’ll post them tomorrow. For this post, a picture from Monday will have to do.
quick update
I miss the 30D and I miss California.
Not much going on right now. Skyler is sick with a fever and *I think* a sore throat. He hasn’t been eating much and has been laying around so it’s time I took him in to the doctor.
We got the tree yesterday morning and it got decorated last night. Only 17 more days till Christmas. This year has gone by so quickly.
I’ve got lots of pictures to post so later on I will post them up. We are off to the doctor now :)
I guess I need to explain to a few readers regarding my latest protected post. The whole situation doesn’t bother me much anymore. I didn’t intend on coming off as being so up and down in the post, I guess it was just a little difficult to really explain how I felt. I honestly left work on an incredible note today. I was going for the fun and chipper mood and I guess I failed. But all is well. I promise, I’m not in any turmoil ;)
An update to the “adopt a family”. My dad sent around an email at his work letting everyone know what we were doing and he got an incredible response from it. He told them that if anybody wanted to help out, he would accept donations from them. No more than a couple dollars each. We really weren’t expecting many people to want to contribute, but we figured it wouldn’t hurt to ask. It’s Christmas time, it’s for a good cause, why not? He ended up raising $90 in one day. So that is going on a Wal-Mart Gift Card. There are plans to give them the Christmas ham he gets from work and we are going to put together a food basket that has the staples and then some extra ingredients to make some yummy cookies. Mom and Dad went through their change jars and ended up with $100 to put towards the gifts for the family. For the son, the PSP game he has on his dream list and several clothing items. For the mom, the crock pot she asked for and some bath necessaties.
Knowing how much of a difference we are making in their lives is such an amazing feeling. I want to do this every year. I’m going to do this every year.
So long California
My weekend in California has come to an end. While I’m happy to be going home and back to my normal everyday routine, I’m going to miss California and the people there so much.
My stay at Casa de Widmer was F.A.B.U.L.O.U.S. Beautiful place, amazingly wonderful hosts. I had expectations for how the trip was going to go and I can honestly say that the trip was better than what I imagined.
Friday was the aquarium, Saturday was the beach and Sunday was the apple orchard and spending time with family. Although the last day was spent feeling a bit under the weather, I wouldn’t change how the trip went for anything.
Unfortunately, tomorrow is back to work. I need one more day off….
please pray
I know I’m late on this posting, but I have to do this.
I want all my readers to pray. I want you to pray as hard as you can for a 2 year old who is fighting cancer. For a 2 year old who has been fighting cancer for almost a year. Who has been fighting as hard as a little boy possible can. For family that has been fighting for him. Please pray that he can start the ONLY possible treatment left tomorrow. Please pray that his lungs are strong enough. Just please pray. It’s not fair that children are getting cancer. Why should any parent have to go through that? Why should any child not get the chance to live their life and be able to grow up. Please pray for him. Pray for everyone who is fighting Cancer.
7/30 just a quick update
I didn’t even realize how close to midnight it is until I went to do this post. I have arrived at Robyn’s safely. Worn and exhausted due to a first flight being delayed 40 minutes and a 5 hour second flight with a toddler who did not want to sleep. We did the aquarium today and possibly beach tomorrow. Then Sunday at a family affair where I will spend my time taking pictures. Yes, this is going to be a wonderful vacation.
bad blogger, bad!
Sorry for the lack of blogging. I’m going through my quarterly funk and now that I’m pulling myself out if, I’m getting back behind the camera and getting back into blogging.
Not much new going on. Just a lot of posting resumes and spending time with Skyler. Work is the same. Some days are great, some days aren’t so great. I got a new phone. Loving it. Next step is the camera, then new computer. Vacation is a little over a month. Ecstatic about that. And hopefully new job soon. One that I can move up in, be able to go back to school and feel like I’m getting compensated for my hard work.
I feel like everything is starting to come together. i hope it stays that way.
update in pictures
I guess it’s been a while since I’ve posted pictures.
Since I have absolutely nothing to blog about.
sneak peek | S & Y
Sara is a good friend of mine that I met through work. She and her husband had been trying to have a baby for several years and finally they have been blessed with their son, Youssef. He was so sweet and so easy going, eager to give his mom or me a smile. I had so much fun photographing a wiggling 2 month old and his beautiful mom that I almost cried when the session ended and I had to go back to work.
Sara, your darling boy is the sweetest baby and I hope you enjoy your pictures. This is just a sneak peek and I have tons more that I know you will love! I’ll call you or email you as soon as I have them ready!
oh Canon….
Canon has raised the bar in the DSLR war against Nikon. Introducing……
Canon 50D. (it’s clickable)
The camera is incredible. The LCD is now 920,000 pixels while the 40D only has a 230,000 pixel LCD. That alone has brought the 50D up to Nikon standards. The ISO on the 50D goes up to 12,800 while the 40D goes up to 3200. And then of course the 15.1 MP 50D compared to the 10.1 MP 40D.
I no longer love the 40D and lust after him. The 50D has drawn my attention and I want him. I drool after him. I’m starting a “50D camera you will soon be mine” fund. Anybody that cares to contribute. Go right ahead.
just another wednesday.
I had plans for today being a good day. I was looking forward to today for one simple reason. I just didn’t expect karma to kick me in the ass yet again. Maybe things will go better tomorrow or Friday.
boring blog post. feeling crappy. need sleep.
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Nothing much to blog about. I’ve got pictures to post, but I haven’t even uploaded them to flickr yet. I’m so lazy. Too many other things - people - on my mind. Tomorrow night. I promise.
a boy and his camera
he wanted to see my camera. He wanted to take a picture of Elmo. I love how he’s taken an interest in it. I don’t know how long it will last for, but I hope his interest continues to grow. He’s my little photographer. :)
swimming diyptch
I was finally able to get him into the pool. And once he was in the pool, he had so much fun swimming to everyone and jumping off the inflatable boat. I’ve got so many fun pictures from this afternoon too :)
My little fish <3
Skyler finished his Infant Swimming Resource lessons this morning. He no longer cries when he’s in the water, instead he swims like a fish and floats on his back like a pro. He’s got the swim to rest down pat. She wants us to work with him on the swim - rest - swim sequence during the summer.
He got in the pool today without fuss. We worked on our lessons for a few minutes and then he saw on the big float while I swam him around. (he calls it a boat. lol). Then we worked for another few minutes on the lessons and then he got out. He did WONDERFULLY. Still not crying, just swimming and resting just as I tell him too. I think we even got some smiles out of him ;)
Overall fantastic day with a few mood dampers thrown in for good measure.
only in my dreams
Have you ever dreamnt about someone, a friend from several years back, only to have it bring back a wave of memories. HE was in my dream early this morning. He from my last job. One of my greatest friends. Someone it hurt so very much to lose the friendship with. He was one of the few people that has ever really gotten me.
I had stopped thinking about him for several months. Now he is back running through my brain.
Someone explain why this happened. It wasn’t just a simple “he was in my dream and there wasn’t any connection”. I saw him, he looked at me and then he went looking for me. His face errupted into a huge smile when he saw me. I felt the hug that we exchanged. We talked like we were old friends, as though no time had passed.
I now wonder if I have ever visited him in his dreams…