Psychotically Sane

yarn giveaway entry

Jess — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 04:25:45 +0000

I love yarn. It’s a sad little addiction. And seeing as how money is super tight, I can’t go out and buy yarn whenever I want. So I stalk blogs and sites doing giveaways.
I like giveaways. Especially when the prize is a beautiful cowl pattern and some super yummy malabrigo yarn. and we all know how much I covet malabrigo -drool-

So if you are like me and are a yarnista, or if you want to enter and then send me the yarn if you win -hint hint-, check out this blog and her awesome giveaway going on :)

Icelandic Gardner

Tonight…

Jess — Thu, 02 Sep 2010 04:05:20 +0000

Tonight I learned….

…. I make stupid mistakes in math. I have got to slow down when I do my homework and when I do the tests.
… Skyler doesn’t like it when I do my school work and can’t play with him.
… I’m slowly finding my groove and feeling more in control of studying for school.
… the medical field really holds my interest.
… I don’t admire anyone famous. Even though my first paper for English is on just that.
… I stress less while studying when I knit.
… I won’t have to be up until midnight or later studying for school. I was done tonight at 10:30.
…maybe I really can do this. Just as long as I keep up the can do attitude. I can totally do this.

And over the next few weeks my faithful blog readers will learn that my posts will include less and less photos than ever. The iTouch is awesome for blogging on. Not so much for including photos. But maybe I can spare some time for photography, the post processing involved and then finally pulling out a blog post with photos. <3

Just a bunch of random thoughts jumbled through my mind

Jess — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 05:08:30 +0000

School started. 2 days in and I am already getting flustered. Full time employee, full time single parent and now I am adding full time student to my plate. And I keep telling myself that it’s all too much. I don’t have time. I don’t have time. I don’t have fucking time. And yet, I’m not listening to the rational part of my self conscious that is screaming at the irrational part. I’m telling myself I can do this. But when I go to bed at midnight, only to wake up at 6am to get myself and Skyler ready for a full day of work & preschool, and I haven’t finished all the school work I wanted to finish today, I feel pretty damn shitty.

I know it just started. I know that i have to get into a routine. But what happens when I fall behind only 1 week in?
Or am I stupid for worrying about that. Am I over reacting when I think that I will have to study 7 days a week just to keep up? Am I over reacting when I get aggravated by the fact that I have to take off work to go on campus to take biweekly tests for one class and 1 test a month for another? This is online classes. Whatever happened to it being scheduled on my time, around my schedule?!?!

Maybe my negativity is all due to my sleep depravation. I refuse to think I am over stressed already. But I know it’s coming. And it scares me. The unknown scares me. The future scares me because I don’t know what is in store. I just wish I had one idea of where my life is going. But I don’t.

And on that random note I end this post. Because I am tired. And my alarm will be going off in 5hrs and 10 minutes. From then I will push the snooze button for at least 30 minutes wishing i could sleep for at least another 2-3 hours.

There is just not enough time in the day….

Happy Birthday Skyler

Jess — Mon, 30 Aug 2010 04:18:50 +0000

On August 25th, Skyler turned 4. And it still feels surreal to me.

I miss the days of him curling up on my chest, his shallow breaths the only thing I wanted to hear. I miss the joy of him learning to sit up, learning to crawl and the most exciting of all, the first steps. I miss the baby days.

I’m enjoying the “kid” days, but it’s all becoming a blur. Next thing I know, he’s going to be a teenager in high school. And I will wonder, where the hell did the time go?

and as much as I love the “missing baby teeth”, it makes him look that much older. That’s when the tears really start flowing.

Here is to another fabulous year kid.

4yrs, 7 months ago.

Jess — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 16:00:33 +0000

Roughly 4yrs, 7 months ago I joined a message board for expectant mothers due in September. I never expected to get much out of it. Some fun chatting, some answers to questions I had during a very stressful and confusing time for me. And maybe a friendship or two that would never last more than a couple months.

Instead I met some amazing women. I found some incredible friendships that have, for some, been going on over 4 years strong. Friendships I can see lasting for years to come. Several women I have had the blessing to meet face to face. Others I have just simply talked on the phone with, chatted online with; while I wait for the day that I will finally get to meet this amazing person that has been there for me. I feel lucky.

I am lucky.

So to my amazing friends who read my blog and will see this, Thank you. For being there. Thank you.